The Lived Experience of Nurse Abuse AZBN

Part 1 of Az Nurse Carol Schaeffer whose story is demonstrated in.part 1 as her heart and her loss of her gift to society.

This post omits the cause of the initial complaint which is another of many museum like cases where experienced nurses of many years get unjust disciplinary actions over tainted clinical issues that grow and blossom.with power of AZBN. Just so you can feel it.

Nurse On Probation 
I will tell my story in two parts   part 1
Though out  my nursing career I alway thought that only nurses that took drugs and abused patients stood  up before the nursing board.  I was so wrong. I want to talk about my experience when I  was put on probation  for 2 years in 2010  by  the Arizona State Bourd of  Nursing.   I remember my  lawyer advising me to read the consent agreement sign it  or lose my nursing license  handing  me the consent agreement and  leaving. I just stared at it.   I just  couldn’t read it.   I just couldn’t.  I signed it.  I didn’t want to lose my nursing license.  The next thing I knew I meet my lawyer at the nursing board.   She proceeded to tell me I was dressed provocatively.   She told me not to speak to the board because if I put the blame on someone else the nursing board would look at  it as me not taking responsibility for my actions. I looked down at my chest I didn’t see any cleavage.  I was wearing a below the knee skirt I thought to myself I’m about to lose my nursing career, my identity,  my means of survival, my dignity,  and  this lady lawyer is bitching about the way  im dressed!    I don’t even remember what my lawyer said to the nursing board.   I just remember looking down I felt  so ashamed.   I couldn’t look up but I could feel the  room full of people and nursing students staring  at me and judging me.  I just wanted  to crawl away. Besides probation comes stipulations.  Mine were:  I could not work travel, or registry, or home health,  I could not work nights.  I had to take a 3 month RN refresher course,  pharmacy class, and psych evaluation.  I had to work as a RN on probation for 2 years before I could get off  probation. I was then told  to turn in my nursing license to get stamped PROBATION.   I looked at it and I thought who in the hell is gonna  want to hire me  with probation stamped clear  across my nursing license?   I felt degraded and humiliated.  How can I face any employer? They might as well have stamped probation  right across my forehead. When my boss found out I was put on probation she fired me saying  since I was not a nurse in good standing  not only was I fired I would be denied  receiving unemployment  benefits.   I had to go to court to  fight for unemployment.  I didn’t have a lawyer and I didn’t understand the legal terms but some how I won. No one would hire me not even the nursing home nobody wanted to work in.  To be rejected over and over again was more than I could bear.  Rejection is even harder to face if you are a nurse  who thinks  being  a nurse defines who you are.  So for the next 8 years I just wondered aimlessly.  I was in limbo.  I became a  eccentric recluse.  I wouldn’t even check my mail for fear I would get  a letter from the ASBN adding another charge to my license.   To this day I still have that same fear. Since I could not find a job as a RN the nursing board would not take me off probation even though I  had been on probation for 8 years. After 8 years a  nurse that  I  knew   moved to my town.  She offered me a job.  I was so happy!!!   I thought this is my lucky break, I was so excited but this lucky break turned out to be a disaster…….To be continued