Theme Nurse From The Field

There is no doubt that the theme here has frequently been presenting AZBON, AG,Adm Law Ct activities in review. The nature of real nursing may have escaped some of us. So to identify that we are nurses this publication is about the ability of a seasoned nurse remaining a pivot point, with directional change, in the lives and hearts of those touched by said individual, and individuals in the patient care area.

 

There is so much I want to write, but so much has been written about the same subject by many people, many different ways.  The bottom line, death is the final journey without a return ticket.

I recall a moment in time when I was a  graduate nurse working in Fort Worth on a medical surgical floor.  It was a lifetime ago, 1981.   A tall lanky man with dark hair and pleasant features walked up to me with a somber expression on his face.  He said, “I need to talk to somebody.  Somebody who possibly could understand.”  I looked at him and stopped what I was doing and asked him what was wrong. He said, “I have been diagnosed with lung and throat cancer and they want me to come in for radiation, chemotherapy and surgery.  I don’t  really know what I should do”.  Needless to say, I was stunned and did not have an immediate reply.  I scrutinized  his face long and hard and came to conclusion he wanted an honest answer.  After a few minutes of silence, I found the answer I thought he was searching for. “Sir”, I said.  “In all honesty,  I can not tell you what to do.  However, I can tell you what I would do.  I would liquidate any and all of my assets and sell anything I had of value and take the trip of a lifetime that I could afford. If you enjoy fishing, then maybe a fishing excursion  is what you should think about.  If you have children and are worried about leaving them anything, don’t worry about it.  Being a good father and educating them is all they need to be successful  and survive in the world.   I am not telling you to do this, but this is exactly what I would do if I found myself in your position.”  He looked at me for a minute and then smiled and said, “Thank you.”  He then shook my hand and left.  I never saw him again and heard from another nurse he never returned for his scheduled treatments.

Fast forward to 2002.  My husband Mark was diagnosed  with multiple  diagnosis during this time, including end stage liver disease. The news hit us hard and we were silent on our ride back home.  I couldn’t think of anything to say. Not one word came to mind that could ease the shock of the news we both heard.  Half way through the ride, I remembered my conversation with the patient in Fort Worth.  I looked at Mark and said, “Let’s sell our house and the ten acres on the river.  Let’s go on a long road trip until the money is gone.  We will take the ultimate vacation we put off for years. Mark  was driving and pulled his eyes away from the road and said, “You would sell the house so we could do this?”    I told him the house and all we acquired  meant nothing without him. We sold the house in town and ten acres on the river four weeks of each other.  We left Llano on October 2002, took a long leisurely trip across the Texas coast, to Louisiana,Mississippi, Alabama, Florida and ended at Key West where we lived and partied for 2 1/2 years none stop.  We packed up and moved to Galveston  in 2005. He died  in 2008.  He lived 5 1/2 years longer than the doctor initially diagnosed. him.  I had quite a few friends and family ask me why I sold the house and land because they said they would never do it.  I told them if I had more money and more assets, I would have liquidated them too.  When Mark died, my life was over as I once knew it, and if I did not sell the house and land, I would have been miserable and sad because our house was not a home without him.  The land meant nothing without him because there was nobody who enjoyed hunting, fishing, camping, swimming, and just sitting on  the rocks  overlooking the Llano River  than both of us together.

On June 2017 I went to Audie Murphy VA in San Antonio and it was was confirmed I have a mass on my neck, tongue and thyroid.  The word cancer was not mentioned because the doctor wanted to have a needle guided biopsy done in radiology.  I was  a nurse long enough to know that biopsies are the gold standard used in confirming diagnosis.  Many doctors  will not mention the word cancer without the confirmation of a biopsy. .  I also know that biopsies  are needed to formulate treatment plans.  Even though the doctor did not mention cancer, he mentioned that radiation, chemo and surgery would probably be needed in combination.  I told him I refuse treatment, and would think about consenting to a biopsy. Driving back home, my thoughts were back  on the patient in Fort Worth.  I was going to take the same advise I offered him.

I have learned a few things in the short time since the tests confirmed I have three masses.  I learned that when you tell your friends you have cancer, they drop off the radar like flies. One friend, out of lack of anything to say, stated, “I am sorry you have cancer, but I am glad it isn’t me.”   I responded telling her I too was glad it was not her. The same friend said a week later, “If you decide to blow your brains out, please call me so I can say goodbye.”  I told her I would take that into consideration. My point is if anyone reads this and is going through a terminal diagnosis, do not be surprised by many of your family and friends missing in action or disappearing.  Do not take it personally or let it upset you.  Just remember this, you entered this world by yourself, and you will exit  by yourself.  There is an old legend that older  or sick elephants instinctively  remove themselves from the herd and find a place to die alone.  In my mind, this is a dignified death.

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12 thoughts on “Theme Nurse From The Field

  1. I clicked ‘like’ but I can’t say I like it. However I greatly respect it. My husband feels much the same. If he is ever diagnosed with a terminal disease he says he is going to Alaska and hiking into the bush until he finds a grizzly bear. Then he is going to walk up to it and punch it in the face until it kills him. He says he wants our grandchildren to remember crazy grandpa who picked a fight with a grizzly, not sick grandpa who died a shadow of himself in a hospital bed. We’re both veterans of the EMS and nursing world. So we’ve seen how bad it can get.

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  2. you never know what you would do until it hits you. losing a license one might say, well you can get another job . Can you? or you have your health ? do you . You are not the same person so when compared the two are not much different. How many nurses. cnas has the bon, ‘killed” by their actions devastation of another human beings life? One day a breast lump popped up out of no where, ‘damn” breast biopsy, chemo radiation, like i need that NOW, just looking at the course of treatment you see so many patients face. Finally get that mammogram, a cyst, caused from trauma, no treatment . wow , what a relief. The unknown may be worse than the cure, so check it out, and put it to rest and make the decision then .

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  3. Perhaps death touches more than birth, I think its very important to note the emotional levels acting upon exogenous social and physical pressures that only the recipient can fully feel and respond. The license issue can be worked on. The Mefical Mafia is real, and unstoppable but the nurse WILL clearly make note of these events for additional communications.

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  4. Nurses , cna’s stop signing the consent agreements, They are forcing them down everyone’s throat . The attorneys are lying , and making threats , so you will sign . The BON keeps track of what attorneys go before the admin law court. Fight and don’t stop these corrupt people on this board are out of control and do some really nasty things to certain few . Dont let them get away with it. You have every right to take them to court. NOw, if you screwed up , hope for the best outcome in a consent but do NOT sign that an evaluator can discuss this with members of the board. ! do NOT .. If you need to discuss your case , an email is on this sight send in your name and number. (to verify legit ) . Do not talk to the bon, first or do anything until you talk to someone who has been through this , web of evil !

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    1. Nurses and CNA’s should have the same rights as patients. we are told to signed consent agreement or our license will be revoked. If you are put on probation you are not told your will never find a nursing job. Patients have the right to informed consent so should nurses and CNA.’s.

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  5. “board ” attorneys , ones who go before the board , as their bread and butter, are talking to the board when you are not there. Making back door deals, keeping you from going to court and getting due process . They will tell you, the board can do whatever they want , no matter what happens in court. Think about it , illegal , well they do that, but don’t think that , unless challenged they wont try anything. ! (although you’ll have to go further to get any kind of due process at the admin law court) that one is for sure. ! Beware what advice you are given and what you are giving up in signing papers , hold them to the mat. This board is not the brightest bulbs in the pack, very corrupt with their ‘discipline” . Sometimes people are shaking their heads in some cases. They have no special ability , other than to take care of certain ones. No accountability , just bullying and deplete assets , stealing careers, creating homelessness and pennilessness. Diabolical piece of despicable 60 center st arm.

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  6. I have been on probation for the last 8 years. I have requested to be taken off probation throughout the years due to not being able to find a job in nursing. The ASBN knows that nurses on probation are blacklisted in the state of Arizona, In order to get off probation I must work as a nurse for two years. How can you get off probation if you cant work, Beth Campbell answer to that, is no one is guaranteed a job. I’m not ok with that answer. in 2015 the board said they would reduce my probation to 12 months. Employers don’t care how long or short you are on probation they wont hire you because of your probation status, I just received a phone call from the BON monitoring department saying that I failed to make a monthly self report. I told her I have been sending them a self report every 3 months for the last 8 years. She said your last agreement you signed in 2015, says you have to file monthly self reports. I said I was told by the bon investigator I need to file monthly self reports if I had a nursing job. She said no every month. You have to go back every month since 2015 and write a monthly report. I said how will I remember what I was doing in 2015? or 2016 for that matter? You’re just now telling me all this, She said you should have read your agreement.
    I said If I haven’t done my job you apparently haven’t done your job either if you just noticed now (July 2017) that since 2015 I haven’t been filing monthly self reports. I said You think that you can do what ever you want because you don’t have to answer to no one, This is unethical. she said you still have to file monthly reports.

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    1. Your case remains paramount amongst a lack of detailed honesty. The inability to get work due to AZBN probabtion is factual and definately a challenge. Can the Bd not regulate nurses with clinical complaints they deem harmful? It is unlikely the process is honest, and you know the truth. I am strongly leaning applying for cma test and or cna. later

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  7. Yes Carol it is a catch 22, the Board knows that you cannot find work on probation, but the consent agreement states you must work while on probation. SO to that I say write down the board members as references they say , this is ‘workable ” then let them be part of the solution. They say you can do this , or they certainly would never order anything that was not plausible !! So call the probation person and ask them who is hiring nurses on probation?? Putting nurses out of work is NOT public safety , it is taxpayer increased burden! For Elizabeth Campbell to say such a rediculous statement is common amongst lying lawyers, “no guarantees ” like no sh*t really. If a lawyer could guarantee , a Dr could guarantee an outcome , is rediculous , as she is to make this silly notion. She shouldnt be talking for the BON either, who voted this crazy consent agreement then hold it against you. For this crazy board to require monthly reports is harrassment, esp when your not able to get a job in nursing. Especially since it was every 3 months. It should be like other states, that say , notify us IF YOU ARE WORKING. Is the BON paying postage for this nonsense, keep track of your hours , and records. Eventually these lunatics will be out of there . DOH. It is also age discrimination, their thoughts were , she’ll just retire and go away, and dont think they dont have the details. although the bon members themselves are unable to do the type of work you are willing to do . Another nurse railroaded in AZ , by the BON , to protect a hospital !! Taking nurses down by ordering psych evals playing turn the tables. What low life miserable gangsters! THIS IS A PERFECT EXAMPLE OF WHY NURSES SHOULD NEVER SIGN THE CONSENT AGREEMENT !!!! take them to court, they know you cannot get through probation , but now can turn it on you, “you signed and agreed to it “. a sneeky , ‘get the BON off the hook for filing charges in the first place . DO NOT FALL FOR IT. you wont work anyways so , let them revoke, and file suit. They DESERVE IT. No other board operates like the hitlers in az . carrying out the devils work.

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  8. A nurse who pleaded his case in another state, (after being screwed by the AZBN) , attorney made this statement : the Az board engaged in a flawed and unfair process in discipline his license and that due to the flawed process this board should give less weight to the five year license revocation by AZ and instead impose a lesser sanction of a four week suspension. ” “it took four years for the AZ board to give him a hearing date , he kept the AZ BON informed , he made the mistake of telling them he was going overseas on the 15th (after 4 yrs the AZBON scheduled a hearing on the 19th of the month, unforseen delays , when he returned on the 23rd his license was revoked for 5 years. A real shady gang at the board , playing games , nasty tricks on unsuspecting nurses who think that a BON would be held to a higher level of honesty but found out , what nasty folks they really are. Why play games ? why be a liar, prosecutor ? is what you THINK , is ‘winning ‘ a ego booster you screwed someone out of a career?
    sick F’ks that is for sure no other word for what they did !! horrific , that most nurses have no idea how they do things and lie through their teeth about, “public safety ” when nurses need to be protected from the AZ BON !

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